Sunday Morning

"Sunday morning rain is falling....." It's sunday morning, and that's one of Maroon 5's songs, absolutely one of my favourite, one of those addictive songs which gives you the mood and the groove in the first 2 bars, makes you swing and move to the end and play it again and again.

Nah it's not raining today. Was going to thank goodness but then....goodness it's home i'm staying and books i'm facing today, and the day after tomorrow. I don't care if it rains or if the sun comes out.

I miraculously woke up at 9 today without the help of my alarm clock. It was a pleasant sleep last night, though i was woken up by a mosquito twice and had to go to my sister's room in the middle of the night. I believe it was the same one the night before from the annoying sound...frequency seems bit lower than the others...?!?! Oh back to what I'd done. It's 10:28, 1.5 hours after I'd woken up. I did some stretching and took a walk to cwb and bought breakfast home. Going to study hard today. The exercises woke up me a bit and so.....now i'm writing OD.

I sent Ho Fung the hilarious lung mao comic strip last night. Mo liu seemed to be an insufficient description and he decided that I needed rescue. He sent me some clips last night for my "quality entertainment", he proudly claimed. I can't distinguish which file was moliu-er than the other, the one i sent him or the ones he sent me. I enjoyed all of them immensely. There's a Real Group clip too gees I miss acappella.

Happy times~

A blog with photos should be much more pleasant to the eye right? Ok happy times with my beloved groupmates. This is Agnes' birthday party at LKF Apartment.

Haha this is Sum Yi~~ Ho dak yi ah~~ (left) We were in stanley having a chat with his dad, incredible family friend, following another of my confrontation with my mum. We're fine now don't worry.

This on the right is a few months after the stanley chat. baby is much bigger!!

生命之旅

Is this what 犯太歲 means or am I just magnetic to problems? I was going to write about a not-so happy chat with my mum last week and before I had time to do it, I'd gone through an excitng weekend trying to persuade my mum out of separation.

I have grown tired of it to a certain extent, their recurrent arguments on perpetually empty emotional life due to mutual fundamental communication disorders. If you have to separate and you think that separation is the solution to the problem, seperate. I just honestly don't think either of you would be any happier than if you stayed together.

Something happened and miraculously they made up again. I'm not sure if I preferred separation. I just went furious when they told me not to worry because of some of their realisations towards the problem. AND I HAD KNOWN ABOUT THESE "REALISATIONS" FOR YEARS.

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Had a nightmare last night. This person who was attacking me is one of the nicest persons around me......I wonder if the dream it reflects anything......


anyway need to study now.

Can't concentrate.

Life is really like 生命之旅. Not a very good start for me but who knows what happens next?

Echoes...

I hear sounds echoing in my head, sounds of no meaning but only annoyance, which now forms the constituents of my mind. I guess my mind is not really blank then?

There are a lot of things which I don't want to know and I don't need to know. I say that I don't care to know.

I lie.

I hate insecurity. Or may be it's better to say that I fear it. One thing the online personality tests may be right about, is that I do value independence a lot. I fear of helplessness.

Talking to 27 year-olds or people in their late 20s does make me feel naive, simple, immature, inexperienced and clueless. I'm not sure if i was entirely comfortable with my friend's comment that while he is 27 and i am 23....I am like a baby......although I'm sure he didn't mean any offence.

I need to focus my energy on something new. I'm so empty now.

I'm 23 and for some time I've been stressing on every aspect of my life as if I got advanced notice that I'll only live to 30. Time is of the essence. There are so much to do yet I have no idea what they are, but yes, there are and will definitely be a lot to do and I better do them before 30. (sounding worse than my dear friend CS who aims to retire by age 40!!!) What do i want? Security or adventure? I'm positively uncertain.

Can I ever be satisfied? Can I ever stop "wanting"? BUT HAVE I EVER GOT ANYTHING I WANTED THOUGH?!?!

Loser. And I refuse to be stuck in this state.

Another test...

Yeah, this is how I spend my time...doing online personality tests.......
here's another one got the link from darling: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

I think Darling's analysis was pretty accurate.....mine too....

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward(BLUNT).You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. yau d gum ge si.......?

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. Wonder what it mean in terms of "seriousness of love" le......

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. SO TRUE....

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. SO TRUE....

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. SO TRUE....

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. SO TRUE....

What is your true colour?

Ah, such flattery~ Nice way to begin my day....if only it wasn't a day of studying.

I like to jump steps. I guess that's why I dream of having a job without going through the hardship of applications.

Got loads to say, perhaps later.

Haha interesting~ Did another test with the same title What is your true colour and here is a very different result. I'm RED hurray! I Just LOooove Red.

(Er.....not as flattering description though.......sigh.....and no I'm not a go-getter if you know me....i just learnt how to act without thinking no way i'm changing this now!)

1. Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love.
2. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in.
3. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied.
4. even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind.
5. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment.
6. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.
   
   What's Your True Color?